5 steps to build a human being

Step 1:    Believe you can.
And when they tell you that you must cry, do not.
When they tell you what to eat, do not.
When they tell you it’s time to sleep, do not.
When they tell you what to say; SCREAM.

Step 2:    Know you can.
And listen to what they say, because you can.
When they tell you to run, you can.
When they teach you to read, you can.
When they call you out to fight; STOP.

Step 3:    Think you can.
And obey them when they pay you for it, because you should.
When they tell you to be quiet, you should.
When they tell you that you need to fix yourself, you should.
When they ask you to leave them alone; FIGHT.

Step 4:    Maybe you still can.
And when you feel like there’s no happiness, try.
When they tell you that you have responsibilities you’re running from, try.
When they tell you to stay up all night for others, try.
When they make you suppress all your urges; CRY.

Step5:    You can.
And when you’re greeted by the end of days, smile.
When they tell you you’re sick and you need treatment, smile.
When they ask you to swallow your pills, smile.
When they ask you to wake up one last time; DIE.


I refuse to Identify, I am the Identity


It’s the year 2068,an old man, half a man, sits across from his grandson. Once upon a time child, When I was your age, There was this holy place for those of my kind, We called it JNU. But somehow the J spelt anti, and NU was but national university. Where we’d lost the jawahar to the Lal of the saffron, I know not? It all started with a very whimsical man. Mittron! he said, to resounding applause. bhaiyo, aur behno ! the crowd said bas, rulayega kya, we are all yours. The connection was there, I felt it. I did. Such was the charm of this herculean man, had a 56 inch chest and a mouth like a beer can. Frothing and fuming, irresistibly pungent and loud, he addressed the gathering, ALL under one shroud. We were prescribed a daily dosage of nationalist ideals. A dash of saffron with our morning teas and stories of bhakti in our newspaper leaves. Then in the evening with our movies and Pepsi, stand for the anthem, what was wrong then, I didn’t see. Topped it all off with a chant in the night, bharat mata ki jai, till the next rays of sunlight. Surprising it was when people would say, what good is a leader when all the taxes you pay, Continue to ministers’ pockets by day. By night, these naysayers masquerading as intellectuals would pledge, to fight off corruption and weed out what was left. Oh and speaking of left, son, I was a leftist. Well, not that I am now, don’t tell anyone, promise? I didn’t know what it meant then, what was left and what was right. I thought it was all well within my rights. Asking for equality, of gender and race. For the tribals of bastar, for the women of kashmir and the north east. Arguing, so sorry, You don’t know what that means. (to cause someone to decide to do or not do something by giving reasons). That’s what we did. How blasphemous, I know, how did we not see? Our words hurt our mother, India could bleed? But why was this blood raining down on me? Why was this blood not rising within? Were our questions, questions that from ourselves we hid? With the saffron all around me, and lathis and bricks. They showed me my place child, they showed me the tricks . The tricks that had fooled me into believing there was this book. This document called the constitution that gave us our rights. For how could our forefathers do something so crude, tell people to be equal and that opposition wasn’t rude? Oh, I lost you there again now didn’t I. Opposition! Silly old me. (actions or opinions that show that you disagree with or disapprove of someone or something). So where was I, yes, opposition was a crude idea. It was funny how our ruler was called the prime minister. I mean, why the farce people, he was all the pervasive God himself. He gave us light, and water and electricity. He gave us homes and employment and education. But in our naivety we would often exclaim, Jawahar was responsible for all those things mister, you better step up your game. Oh and I’ll tell you something you’ve most certainly not heard of. There were people called ‘the gays’. We Don’t use that word now, such a thing does not exist. There were more of their kind, a whole tribe in fact. That deadly disease called LGBTQ. I mean, if we cured this, we’ll surely cure AIDS. Then there was this commodity called individual expression and freedom of speech. Had to be carefully rationed or your verbal diarrhoea could get you in trouble,unless you belonged to this extremely superior gene pool called the sangh. Oh! and there used to be system called the judiciary and it had a branch, called the police. You now know them as the ABVP. It’s the year 2068. Visiting hours are over, he must head back inside. Dragging his shackles, smile on his face. Khalid ne bhi aakhir, badal hi diya bhes. Here this young man, he wondered now why, the man who they said was his grandpa, had such a strange name. Khalid. Kha. Kh. That sound. He’d never heard it before in a hindu surname. But he shrugged it off, must’ve been one of the old man’s many quirks. Walked out of prison into his coherent society , where there was one religion, one color, one race, one party. Where Conflict was a word he’d learnt when he last visited his grandpa.

I’ll be the chains that set you free.

I’d offer up my limbs to get you.

I’d roll to your porch and I know you’d lift me up. Limbless. But full of life. Because that’s how my soul was when you found it.

Limbless, and lifeless. You breathed a new life into me.
And now that I have you. I wouldn’t lose you.

I’d keep your soul for mine. Switch out our hearts so frequently you wouldn’t know which was which.

I’d keep you forever. By my side and inside my soul. Let my heart beat inside you while you nurture and protect my soul.

Let the sun fade out into the darkness leaving not a trace of happiness. Then look inside yourself to find all you need.

My soul will guide you. Bind you and set you free. My love will own you and with what I own, I shall buy us a life.

Moments of despair, there shall be none. In moments of sorrow I shall bare my soul.

Let the light from what was once hollow until you touched it, now repay you and fill your own.
No one will ever understand what we are. What we feel what we know who we made each other.

No one will come to our aid when we’re down. They won’t have to, we won’t be.

Every last ounce of energy in me, I shall burn out to lift you to safety o’ love.

Everything I do now on shall be me. I need to be selfish and I need to be free.

Don’t worry my love we’re still meant to be. What I leave behind; you shall not see. For you are more than a part of me.

You are my soul, my sorrow.

My whole, my hollow.

My angel, my gospel.

My flame and my fame.

My reason and delusion. My mission and devotion.

My sleaze and my keys. The keys to the Windows of the true world.
The only world that matters. The world where you and I are me and you.

Where you are me and I am you. Where we are us and they’re all we have.

Hypnotise me and lead me away from the truth. Your lies I shall conquer and turn to a book.

A book we shall worship and follow till dawn. When old and hungover, we fall to our end.